I sit and stare at a beautiful sleeping baby. It is difficult to stop. In this moment, I want time to pause. Can't it just slow down a little? Where is the pause button for life? I stroke her face and all I can do is pray for her. Pray that she will have a heart that loves God like King David loved God. Pray that she offers everything, even the things/people she holds closest to her heart, like Hannah did when she gave her first child back to God. Pray that she is faithful like Ruth. Pray that she will proclaim the gospel like so many in the Bible. I don't want her to succumb to the ways of this world. I want her to stand strong in her faith in God. I want her to love God with all her heart and never desire to rebel against Him. I want her to have peace in this cruel world. I want her to love others and cherish each moment.
I have been reading a book called, "Praying the Scriptures for Your Children." Each chapter has been wonderful! In chapter four the author stated, "In addition to praying Scriptures for my children, I like to reflect on the heroes of the Bible and pray that my kids will have similar strengths and attributes." I really like this idea. There are so many wonderful people in the Bible who laid down all they had to follow God. Honestly, I want to be more like these people. I want to have a servants heart and be willing to do what God says the moment He speaks. I want to be able to give an account at any moment. I want to know God more than I do now. I pick up the Bible and reading the words are difficult. I can't memorize to save my life. I can't concentrate. The words might as well be written in Greek. I am reading and not getting it, but in this moment, I can still pray. I am in a season that sees very little rain. It is almost a drought, but sprinkles do come every now and then. All I know to do in this season is pray and it is all that I can do.