Once I walked away, I believed I was too far gone for Him to ever accept me again. I believed I would suffer many consequences. My outlook on a Heavenly Father has been incorrect for many years. I never took the time to build a relationship with Him. I am just now beginning to have the relationship with Him I longed for as a child. I pray I continue to grow on a daily basis.
I have recently been diagnosed with Interstitial Cystitis and Endometriosis. My husband and I are learning to trust God through these medical conditions, as well as, our infertility. Do I hope these things are taken from me? Yes! Am I thankful for them? Yes, because My husband and I are learning so much about God and His goodness! I also believe if the Lord wills it then it will be done. Romans 8:28 states, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters."
There are many days when I struggle with overwhelming feelings of depression and anxiety, but I will never fall out of His grace. I am simply a child of God learning to depend on Him. I believe Jesus Christ paid the ultimate sacrifice for sins when He gave His life on the cross. It is not about what I have or have not done, but what He did.
Romans 8:38-39"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Choosing to Worship