Ephesians 3:16-18

I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will empower you with inner strength through His Spirit. Then Christ will make His home in your
hearts as you trust in Him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is (Ephesians 3:16-18).

Friday, May 24, 2013

How did it happen?

Yesterday was a battle.  I woke up and was fine.  Out of no where an overwhelming sense of sadness washed over me.  I began to battle with thoughts like, "What do you do for God?" "You are not enough," and "The way you pray is not correct."  LIES, LIES, LIES!  I started to pray.  I admitted to God that I don't know if I am praying correctly, but I had to speak with Him.  I began to sing along with baby praises playing as I was trying to get Landry to sleep.  Once she woke up, we got dressed, and got out of the house.  The sadness left! I was so thankful that God allows us to take every thought captive.

After dinner the unexplainable happened!  Landry had been fussing most of the day, and by the way she was acting, I knew her gums were bothering her.  I decided to finally give her tylenol (I don't love giving medicine to her).  As I was giving it to her she began acting strange.  She wanted to cry, but no sound would come out.  She could not catch her breath!  With tears streaming down my face, I ran in the room with Alan.  We did not know what to do.  He hit her back trying to get anything to come out. Soon we noticed the tylenol was running out of her nose.  We used the nasal aspirator to suction some of the liquid out of her nose.  All the while, her eyes were rolling in the back of her head.  She could not keep her eyes open!  I called my aunt, who is a nurse, no answer.  I called my friends down the street, no answer.  We jumped in the car and drove to our friends house.  Thank God Wade and Melissa were home.  Wade is a nurse and that boy knows his stuff!  By the time we got there Landry was a different child.  I just remembered this morning that I prayed over Landry while we were in the car.  In .4 miles she was better.  That was only by the grace of God.  Wade put our mind at ease by listening to make sure nothing was in her lungs, and reassuring us that she was okay.  I am so thankful for Wade, Melissa, and their three children.  Grant, is actually not born yet, but his arrival will be any day now!  God willing, he and Landry will be able to begin kindergarden together! 
Wade, Lis, and new born Landry!  This is what doing life together is all about!
Did I mention, Wade is also a baby whisperer?  Landry LOVES Wade and Lis!
I haven't written about these next events, but when Landry was born she failed a new born screening.  We both had blood drawn and waited three weeks to find out the results!  It was a looonnnnggg three weeks!  In that time of waiting God led me to Habakkuk 3:16-19.  Through those verses He told me, "I am good, no matter what her test results show."  A peace washed over me.  Once the test results came in, we found out Landry was fine!  I have a carnitine deficiency that was detected through her newborn screening.  We will both see a specialist on Monday (only six months later).  

The third event that I ask myself, "How did it happen?" occurred when Landry was about ten weeks old.  She was sleeping through the night at the time, so when she woke up crying we thought she had a belly ache.  The day before she cried pretty much the whole day.  We had no idea what was wrong.  The next day we decided to give her a bath.  We would try anything and her bath always seemed to sooth her.  Once in the bath, Alan  noticed her little toe was red.  I thought it was just a fat little toe, until I took her out to put lotion on her.  She had a piece of hair wrapped tightly around her toe, which we learned was called toe tourniquet syndrome.  Thankfully, we were able to remove the hair using tweezers.  Our doctor told us that he has sent a baby to a surgeon for this same thing, and the surgeon cut the toe, hair and all!  Again, I do not believe we were able to remove the hair on our own, but God loosened it and allowed us to remove it.  

It is safe to say, in six months we have had strange things happen.  Things that show us, we are at the mercy of God.  Things that make us ask, "How did it happen?"  Through it all God is good.  He has shown His power time and time again.  We are able to do nothing on our own!  Why then do I still worry?  He has shown He is in control.  There will always be scary events that occur, and we cannot control, nor predict the future.  So why do I try to do all things on my own?        


Emily grapes said...

My goodness girl, 3 scary things in such a short amount of time. Thank goodness God is there with you 2 every step of the way. The toe tourniquet is the just most bizarre thing ever! So glad he saw her toe was red!

And so happy to know you have such knowledgeable friends close by!

Rach @ This Italian Family said...

I'm so glad you shared these things. I need to hear stuff like this and be reminded how important trusting God is!